Saturday, January 19, 2008
* 3:31 AM
my mom have been giving me too many bad news lately. haiz.
i cudnt visit abah ystrdy, had to work. so i called mom in the evening to check on things. she told me abah still have to stay warded coz of the lack of oxygen in him, or his blood or sumthing like dat. he had breathing problems bla bla bla...
then yesterday, i called mom again. this time, she told me the nurses were helping abah up to go for his theraphy, unfortunately, he fainted.
so they did tests on him, and later found out abah has a blood clot in his lungs.
haiz haiz haiz.
and i got to noe from mom again, now abah's in ICU. he had operations to remove the blood clot. now no one can stay overnite with him. and the visiting hours were fcking strict.
i pity mom alot. she's been staying up all nite to take care of abah, and she'll go back in the morning, to settle things at home, get a few hrs of sleep, then back to the hospital again. im trying my best to adjust my working schedule, so she doesnt have to take care of atin. and SOME ppl just cant understand wat my family is going thru. ive decided not to rely on unreliable ppl to take care of my daughter. its either i skip work, or my mom wud arrange the nxt better player for me. many of my frens have already mentioned that they are gonna lend a helping hand if i ever need to send atin wen im working. i'll make it clear that im not gonna need help from u.
work's fun as usual, but its been pretty gayish lately.. LOL. im pissed off with some of the ppl arnd man. fcking hell. it's just this bunch of ppl who maybe are sent there to irritate the hell out of me.
but still, work's great.
i heard cloverfield is making ppl puke. hahaha.. i dont noe how true. i have yet watched that show. haha.
advise: dont eat to full before watching dat show k.
its been quite some time since i read things that wud break my heart into a million pieces.
the impact's not so great though. guess the numbness is still there.
how can someone judge me wen they dont even noe me?? tapi everything ada hikmah dia. it taught me not to listen to 1 part of a story. doesnt mean org crite kat kite, kite straight away conclude. ive always been the type who just listen to one side of the story... then began making assupmtions wat so eva. but now, i understand wat it can cause.
like bloody hell, i was said being an immature person. and this motherfucker doesnt even noe my name or who i am.
anyway, fcuk lah. it was VERY disturbing at 1st, then i came to my senses a lil. sikit pon tkde menyusahkan dia if im immature or not. but then again maybe they are the OLD ones lah eh, tu pasal otak mati mcm tu.
anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy................
im think atin's not growing well... she's shrinking instead of expanding. haha. my mom tot so too... she's already 6mths, but her body's still like jelly. and my baby doesnt have teeth yet lah sey... haiya....
and she doesnt wanna drink much milk also... skali jadi kurus mcm aku. haha.
here she is, baru abis mandi.. hehe..
k k, need my sleep. happy weekend.
*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.
