I can make it nice and naughty, be the devil and angel too...

another day of slacking at home. i was in my room the whole day, watching mtv. the beach party at siloso is very very tempting. but have to go to esplanade on the same day. i miss the beach. no one to go with lah, everyone is busy working except for me. bluek.

i caught paris hilton's video clip just now. hehe. i didnt know she sings. she sounds a tinie winnie bit like gwen. just a little.

sum1 called me. it left a weird tingling feeling. like butterflies in ur stomach... sumthing like that. but i shall heed ikin's advice. y do i even have to do this. haiz~

watched aquamarine a while ago. very cute. it makes u wanna fall in love all over again... sweet.
and it made me miss the beach more!

to my dear fren, please take care of urself, and the baby. dont take it too hard on urself. u've went thru alot in ur life. i just want u to be happy. just relax abit ok, and stop hearing wat other ppl have to say. just listen to urself for once.

it's getting weird staying at home. as in not working. haha. it seemed ages, till sum1 reminded me it has only been 2 weeks. bluek.

i shud be going to kallang to collect my pay cheque in the morning. which really depends on wat time i'll wake up.

i wanna watch superman!!

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

unoriginal dum-dums

aniz's sms to me woke me up this morning, well, almost noon lah... she wanted to meet up, so i said ok, and went back to sleep. hahaha.
woke up again arnd 2pm.. (i slept late reading last nite ok!) did some laundry, had lunch while watching TV.

was suppose to meet aniz at 4pm, but i was late. hehe. went for a drink at civic's ctr McD. ikin and fareed was there too. wanna say thx to ikin for fixing the RAM (finally!) in my notebook. hehe... it looked simple enuf, but im sure if i were to fix it, it'll end up a disaster. so i better leave it to the 'professionals'. ikin bought a new notebook too. a pretty white notebook...it's a she, and she has a name.. lol.. but im not gonna mention it here. hehe. ;p

after that, took the train to meet abg at jurong east. saw hasnoor (abg's colleague). had a few conversations... and i walked on. i seem to get along with him better ever since he broke up with that bitch.
looking at a distance, i saw zam (abg's colleague also) waiting in his car with his daughter. hasnoor said zam was waiting for his wife... i didnt go over, just waited for abg beside popular... while waiting, Kak Paulina (Zam's wife) saw me... we chatted awhile.
bumped into so many ppl in one day.

the plan was suppose to meet this person at jurong west, to discuss abt the wedding camera/videoman, but it was postponed. so abg n me went to IMM.

had dinner at bagus, then we got ourselves our wedding rings! =) can only collect it after 4days... becoz of my tiny fingers. they had to make adjustments. no size.

bumped into Beng (wan) at IMM... i was sooo happy to see him. i dont noe y. hehe. he was with this malay girl, Anne (or however she spells it)... she was pretty, very elegant. abg n beng actually continued a story they stopped half way the last time they met. abt some guy who died in prison or sumthing. gross. i tot of askin him abt the breakup. but i didnt wanna upset him. he bought 3 bikes using the money that he saved up to marry nora. haiz. i still dont noe y she have to do all these.

walked arnd IMM, saw this pants that i liked, and abg bought it for me... wohoooo... hehe. he is so pampering me lately. went to giant, bought air freshener for his work place, and butter cookies for me =)

he sneaked me into his workplace after that, since we didnt noe wer to go. he showed me arnd, i really liked the place, so 'homely'. esp the locker room, and the eating place. i was running arnd climbing one of the huge lorries that was there... LOL.

my happy day ended tragically for a caterpillar. haiz~ we were walking along the corridor back to my place, then we heard a 'pop' sound from sumthing i stepped. at 1st i tot it was those small white coloured fire cracker that goes 'pop' wen u throw or step on it. but it was not, it was a huge green fat (or in this case FLAT) caterpillar. i stepped on it. i killed a caterpillar. seriously, i felt bad abt it. and abg made it worst by saying it'll haunt me, and i'll be having nightmares abt it. it was... gross? sad? i dont noe. everything inside the caterpillar's body just came out. lots of green liquid. eewww.... ok ok.. it's only a caterpillar rite?
im sorry caterpillar, didnt mean to step on u. i didnt see u were there. not purposely.

it could become a beautiful butterfly isnt it.............. if i didnt step on it... ?

starting on another novel. finished the previous one last nite. this shud last me till morning. dont wanna have any nightmares abt caterpillars.

and pizza hut, u still owe me a pay cheque.

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

Brownie =)

abg called me just now, asking me to meet him outside. we were chatting for a while, then he gave me this paperbag... and there's a teddy bear inside!! hehehe... coz i was telling him he nvr gave me a teddy before.



it also came with the sweetest card ever. thx alot sayang!
well, i named it Brownie... =)

and there were also 3 tickets to esplanade to watch mega perdana this saturday! wohoooo....! i see u girls this saturday ok! we're wearing dresses right?

i think it's gonna be broadcasted at suria on Tuesday 040706... i think...

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

For You I Will

This guy is cute isnt he? ;p


twisted logic tour 2006


Twisted Logic Tour 2006
10 Jul 2006 (Mon), 8.00 PM

coldplay is havin a concert in spore... and im not going. haiz~ 1st of all the tickets costs a bomb. 2ndly, i dont now who to go with... i know sum1 who luvs coldplay too... but dont think he'll go.

but im thinking of going to robbie william's concert though...


Robbie Williams - Close Encounters
18 Nov 2006 (Sat), 8.00 PM

$300 for the best seats...

okie, enuf abt concerts.
sunday went to pasar mlm with abg. we came across 2 stalls which sells "smelly tofu". there's this big sign that shows, 'smelly tofu'. and ppl actually buy them... the smell is really very nasty! i do go to pasar mlm often but that was the 1st time i came across these smelly tofu stalls. eewww... from far u can already smell the disgusting odour.

havnt been doing anything much. i sleep most of the time. lol. watched alot of cartoons, and mtvs...

gonna find sumthing useful to do after this, then at nite is tv time!! hehe... The Simpsons, Life As We Know It, The OC, CSI NY and Spiderman2... hehe.

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

Just My Luck

i was late this morning, as i predicted. haha... i woke up early lah, but got some problems along the way. went for the interview, i hope i dont get the job. yupz, i dont want it. haha... abg was kind enuf to ask arnd from his frens, so i tot the least i cud do was just go for the interview. im really not interested.

went over to JP, had lunch at mcdonalds with angie. passed her the papers... congrats to her... best coach.. not bad huh. not so cursed champs challenge after all lah huh... hehe. all the best for regional =)

i had a good time with the guy n girls. hehe. yupz, we went to cathay to catch a movie, well, 2 for me and ikin lah. Just my luck is sOOOOO funny. u guys have to catch it ok. i rate it 5/5. i was giggling all the way in my seat. it was my 1st time watching movie at the cathay. thumbs up! im gonna go there more often to catch movies i suppose. it's so cozy n nice atmosphere... the whole building is soOoOo beautiful. hehe.

scary movie 4 is at theater 1, the grand theater. it's like a performance stage. zalila and me were like so impressed. haha. scary movie 4 is crazy. me n kammy were like screaming and screaming, covering our eyes while ikin and zalila laughed at us. zalila was going.. "fariza... tgk tgk... " hahaha.. pulling my hands away... well, this one thing have to admit lah huh.. me n kammy abit scared, alot lah actually, wen in comes to ghosts and eerie stuffs.

we walked down town, spent the rest of the evening slacking arnd at coffee bean.

some pictures...









sweethearts...


the link is up, yupz, more pics. zalila, kammy, ikin, pls find my link on the right to see the rest of the pics k.
zalila, kau try view pics, then view as slideshow k. but if u wanna copy the pics, aku rasa it'll be small, u guys can ask for the pics from me if u want it ok.

well, there's this thing that i tot i wanna say it out here, following up to wat zalila posted at her blog last week or so.
yea, we have been hearing stuffs abt us, from ppl who have nothing better to do but to kpo abt other ppl's life. so wat if we're close now and not back then? does it matter?
ppl making up stories abt y we're close now and all that. there's no other reason behind this friendship. we just enjoy each other's company, we look out for one another...we respect and accept one another for who we are. i dont see anything wrong or weird abt that. so i suggest u keep all that thinkin to urself ok.

now, i wanna get some sleep. i still can adjust my sleeping time. haiz~

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

Time doesnt heal.

it's almost 5am...tossed n turned, i still cant get myself to have some sleep. meeting angie at town in the morning. hopefully i'll get up on time.

suddenly there's so many things in my mind. could it be becoz of the book that i read? i get influenced too easily i think.

y am i still waiting for Fridays?

how many dreams will end?
how long can i pretend?

i dont think im ready for all these. something is not rite.

It happens without reason, when we expect it least. It pulls our heart to pieces, as teardrops dance and secrets feast upon the hearts of innocence. Where truth remains untold, beneath the sounds of silence that broken hearts unfold.
Time doesnt heal. You dont get over the pain, you just learn to get along with it, in time.

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

Dinner @ Delifrance

slacked at home again 1st half of the day... hehe.. if i dont gain weight any sooner, i dont noe wat to say. doing nothing at home, just eat n eat, sleep, slack, surf net... hehehe... lazy pig.

met up with kammy at sembawang mrt in the afternn, who came all orangy with cute fringe. hehe. waited for darling zalila who was late =p btw, i was on time. haha...

walked to assyafaah mosque. kinda far from the mrt... and only zalila went in the mosque to sign up a class for us. hehehe... me n kammy prohibited for today. LOL. our class shud start in July, ni sumer invesment utk akhirat. hehehe. so i'll be seeing them every sunday morning i guess. haha.

a beautiful picture taken by me.... LOL


took a bus back to sunplaza, accompanied kammy to meet this insurance agent guy... me and zalila just sat down n chatted among ourselves ignoring them... insurance ppl kalau da start bebual, mengantokkan.

done with that guy, we went to the library to return my sooo overdue books. hehe.... borrowed some books back also. love novels, wat else... =p

we had dinner at delifrance... =)

yummy chicken soup









yaking none stop throughout dinner... we were there for almost 2 hrs i think. took the bus home. i didnt knew 962's route now is different. bluek. takes longer time to reach home.

and yupz, i changed my blog skin yet again... haha... and i did it myself despite being a pc idiot =)

dont really noe y i choose grey...

anyway, while blog hopping, im surprised that im actually linked up at some ppl's blogs, but im not aware of it. hahaha... and they dont even tag wen they drop by. hmmmm...

im off reading.... bye~


me & u, and u & me, no matter how they toss the dice it had to be

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

how many dreams will end?
how long can i pretend?
how many times will love pass me by until i find u again?

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

What shud i do?

The Bottom Line
You've climbed up that ladder, so now what? Take a look deep inside for the answer.

In Detail
The only trouble about working so hard at climbing that mountainous goal is this: Once you get to the top, where do you go from there? After completing a big step, you may still be struggling with that question; but you will have all the inward clarity you need to answer it. This sense of calm with help you figure out whether to find another mountain to climb or just sit tight and enjoy a wonderful view. You've done well -- don't you deserve a little time off?

find another mountain to climb? or just sit tight and enjoy? hmmmm...... *lost*

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

Hari ini langkah sempurna, hari esok jejak selesa...

1st of all, just wanna congrats zalila.... weeeeeeeeeee.... all the best for you new career =)

ystrdy went over to siti's place, she helped me with some phone calls. basically just slack arnd browsing her wedding n studio photos...
abg fetched me arnd 5pm and we went to joochiat to get some kain... hehehe... mcm makcik2 tol. bluek.

had dinner at kfc, had our meal, chatted a while, discussed a few more things abt the wedding. we tend to get crazy sumtimes, and it was fun...

tuesdays have to get back early to watch tv. hehe. i luv this tv series on starworld now... 'life as we know it'... so funny. i wish im a teenager again... LOL. im so looking forward to nxt week's the OC. theresa is back! weee.... hope theresa n ryan will get back together.... that merissa is very irritating! ryan n merissa getting back together is so not a gd idea.... wat was ryan thinking?? ..... haha.. k k .. im getting paranoid here.

i cleared some of the things in my room last nite. i have a garbage bag full of junks already... and its only from one of the cupboards.

i was arranging the magazines, and i came across YSS year book... and i saw farid in his class photo! hahaha... we nvr knew each other wen we were in school. i was in sec 2, and he's in sec 4.

i also found this self-made card given to me by rafaee wen i was in ite bishan.. hahaha...

"Dear Adik,
Though this maybe a simple letter, it's done with you in mind. though we've only known each other for a short period of time, im glad to have you as a fren. it's been great talking to you on the phone, and if time permits, i'll look forward to many fun-filled days with you. and do look forward to brighter days, okie? cause sumtimes things dont always turn out right, you should always remember that if u ever need someone to talk to, im never outta sight.
Happy Valentine's Day.

Please whisper not the truth but wat's inside, cause now im going through fear of losing you. Is it wishful thinking to turn the clock back, or can we build upon and see wat we've lacked?"

Rafaee."


Sweet isnt it? =) i wonder wer he is now, if he still rmmbrs me..

im so free that i actually arranged my CLEO magz according to the months... and i realised that i have all the issues since october 2003. i didnt subscribe, and was so obediently buying every month. hehe... so sayang wanna throw them away...



and had my all time fav ikea catalogue. hehe.. i only missed out the 2001 issue.



started out with one of the dulang, it was ok, nice =) i slept only at 6.45am after waking abg up. and woke up at 3pm today. hehehe...

okie.. have to go and throw some more things away... hehe.. tata.

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

Peter Parker

just finished watching spiderman 2 on hbo... and im falling in love with peter parker all over again... LOL. he's just so sweet. kammy shud noe y... she really noes the type of guy that would actually make me turn twice to look.

Tobey Mcguire








318 days to SpiderMan 3... yupz. im excited already.



Spider-Man 3 is scheduled for release on May 4, 2007, and will reunite returning cast members Tobey Maguire, Kirsten Dunst and James Franco with director Sam Raimi and producers Laura Ziskin and Marvel Studio's Avi Arad, the successful filmmaking team responsible for the first two films. Thomas Haden Church and Topher Grace have joined the cast of the blockbuster franchise.

and my hero? =) even spiderman made me think of u. gay spidey? rmmbr? LOL...

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

From Her to Him...

The Bottom Line
Feel confident about what you have done. You are the strongest source of praise.

In Detail
Guess who your number one fan will always be. You! It's time to refocus all your positive energy back toward yourself -- you've been giving away much too much to other people lately. Good friends and family members will always be on hand to make you smile, but you are the only one who can completely understand the battles you've been in and the lessons you've learned. Cut yourself some slack -- and give yourself a great big pat on the back.

even my horoscope thinks its a gd time for me to take a break n relax. hehehehe....

siti woke me up today, asking me out for a movie. and its so fun knowing that i can go without thinking that i have to work. hahaha...

met up at westmall, watched 'over the hedge'. free tickets from her husband. met abg for a while at westmall's harvey norman. siti said he slimed down... but i think he's still the same... hmmmm....

pity see abg had to have lunch by himself.. wanted to join him, but im with siti... so just stayed for a while, me n siti went off. we catched up alot... had our meal at kfc, then went to imm to get lots of sweets. hehe. one thing abt me n her, we cant stop yaking...there's always sumthing to talk abt. growing up together, i realise that the topics change as we get older.. haha.. and its kinda funny... we used to talk abt guys n stuff wen we're younger, but now the topic changes to wat to cook for ur husband for breakfast.. hehehehe... haiz... we're getting OLD. aarrgghh..

she passed me some photos, and looking at it made me miss my long hair so much!!





went home after that, ive been doing nothing, just slacking arnd... too lazy to start doing anything...



she just want him to noe that sumtimes she say things that she nvr meant to say. wen she's angry, she tend to say stupid things that she'll regret in the end. she was sorry,all the time, but she didnt say it to him.

she noes she always say bad things abt him, but only she noes, all of them are not true. no one can compare to him. she shud have let him noe.

she never fails to think of him every single day since they knew.... every single day. he's there everywer she went. she just want him to noe that.

she missed the fren she had in him. the places they went to. the things they did. the words they exchanged. the photos they took. she misses him.

she's reminded of him coz of things around her... she remembers things about him, things that she used to share with him.. things that he luved, things that made him happy. she lost the happiness that she once used to share with him. she dont think he feels the same way anymore.

she still keeps within her the little things he did that made her happy. but to him, she never said a word.

she nvr meant to say such thing abt his frens, infact she thinks that he has great frens. maybe she said all that becoz of her own insecurities, but she nvr told him that.

there's alot of things that he shud noe... but she didnt tell him.

for now, all she wants him to noe is that she's sorry. and that she's nvr gonna forget him... ever.

maybe our hearts will find their way.

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

Im Luvin It...

im back...from i donoe wer. hehe.... havnt been blogging past few days. was pretty busy.

140606,Wedneday.
My last day @ Pizza Hut.
I really dont have anything to say abt it.

150606,Thursday.
Was at JB the whole day with abg n his mum. spent lots n lots n lots of bloody money. haha. we drove arnd from one store to another... it was really tiring.
bought myself a shoe, a silver diamond heels.. =)

160606,Friday.
Met up with zalila early in the morning @ sembawang mrt. passed her my stuffs and she was off to work... i dropped off at kallang. lazed arnd, read the papers, had breakfast at mcdonalds and then went to head office. returned my uniforms. even at that point of time, they asked me to consider staying... bluek.
abg fetched me at kallang mrt after that, then we drove off to my place to pick fahmi n my mom up. went to JB again. shop shop shop. spent lots n lots of money again. spent the whole day there.

170606,Saturday.
abg n me fetch zalila @ sembawang. pick up kammy at amk, then we were off to bugis. donoe y it seems like it's been quite sumtime since the 3 of us went out. LOL.
abg dropped us off at bugis junction and he left to meet jalil... so the 3 of us went arnd looking for shops that did threading... we ended up at serangoon. bluek.
it was a bloody freaking painful experience.
kammy quarrelled with a fellow taxi customer. but in the end we won the battle. hehe.

zalila n me had a facial massage at this spa place @ bugis. it was really very nice n relaxing. we were next to each other. it's kinda funny peeking at one another, only to see our faces white covered with masks... hehe. kammy had body scrub n massage over at another room..

sat arnd at coffee bean after that. had my all time fav pure chocolate ice blended, and a big cookie =)
chit chat a while and then we left. abg fetched me to go and get a few more stuffs for the studio photo shoot.
saw nadia n farid. i guess this was the 1st time i chatted alot with her. i dont even talk wit her abt anything before. she was telling me abt her wedding preparations. and she asked abt my work. it seems very weird telling ppl that i dont work anymore... hmm....
she's getting married june next year, and she already bought her shoes! i havnt even do anyting. LOL.

180606,Sunday.
changing clothes and taking photographs is a very tiring thing to do indeed. 6 different kinda costumes. luved the blue ones the most. the outdoor photo was kinda cute too... we decided not to go to esplanade..too common...

me having lunch... =)


overall it was ok... i luv all the photos. it's gonna be ready for choosing in a week. the wedding invitations are also ready for preview before printing in a week. the wedding invitation cards costs my mom a bomb. LOL. good opportunity to make her spend money for me. abah was kind enuf to book the multipurpose hall for me. and i didnt even get him anything for fathers day... bad bad me.. im broke lah.. my cheque's in only next week....

im just gonna laze arnd and watch dvd after this... so free.. LOL. and im gonna wake up sooo late 2mrw. im so tired these few days...

gonna settle my room 2mrw i guess, need to throw lots of junk away... make room for abg's stuff. gonna start with my dulang stuffs... tak habis2 dulang dulang dulang... LOL... zalila!! mane kau?? bila nk siap ni?? start pon belom.. hehehe....

wanna enjoy my dvds now.. chiao.

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

drastic decision

im feeling very sucky. arrrggghhh!!!!
i have a bad throat. and ystrdy i had fever i think. i havnt been drinking plain water ever since i left bbc. hehe. my room's a mess. books and lots of magazines all over my bed. bags all over the floor. omg... k k .. im gonna stop whining.

just finished watching The OC. i have to say i hate that merissa girl! she's such a self-centered, attention-seeking pathetic bitch.

work morning just now. had to run dough myself. and for the record of my years in pizza hut, i managed to carry 1 batch of dough myself out of the mixer. LOL. i know, now im pathetic. hahaha...

im getting a little impatient getting out of the store. i dont really care abt the money already, im just gonna clear my leave. but it's so difficult to get approval. its very annoying. sux sux.

i cant work this thursday, this sat and this sun... and my leave is not yet approved. worst case senario, im just gonna leave. hopefully they only deduct 2 weeks of my salary... *hopefully*
if i dont wanna do sumthing, i just dont want to. nobody can force me. just like wen i was in school. i dont wanna go to school, means i dont, i just quit. hehehe... yea, twice i dropped out. LOL.

2mrw cud be the last day at work.

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

18 more days

The Bottom Line
Proof of your progress arrives. You're closer to the finish line than you thought.

In Detail
Get ready for some real proof of your progress to appear. Things have taken a turn -- a strong turn. The tough choices you've been making are paying off big time and people are taking more notice of the unique perspective that you bring to every conversation and meeting. Relationships are fading to the back burner of your life right now, but that doesn't mean that you're not in the thoughts of the people who love you. They are watching you soar and cheering you on.

Hmmm... i noe wat this wud mean for angie (who is a virgo also). but for me, i'm not really sure wat it is abt. proof of my progress? seriously im so not progressive at work anymore.

btw, 2mrw's the day. champs challenge. all the best to my dear friend.

some pics i wanna post, before i start blabbing.

Me, Winnie & the gang.


On the way home...


Furry Zorro (my dear... hehehe)


Furry Me...i thought this mask is suppose to cover only the eyes... but it's like covering my whole face. hehehehe.



Started my day with work... took cab, raining so heavily. so syiok if can sleep. 18 more days only... nvm. got caught up in a difficult situation with a bloody customer. some ppl just dont understand wat is 'NO OUTSIDE FOOD ALLOWED'. simple enuf isnt it?

had late lunch with aniz before abg fetch me from work... we went to east coast for makyong's picnic day or sumthing like dat. it was still raining and im so happy coz i get to wear my new raincoat for the very 1st time. hehe... usually i'll have to wear someone else's raincoat if he rides and it rains.

reached there, i just minded my own business as always. just the way i like it. i cant be bothered if ppl were to think i dont mix arnd or anything like that. it's none of their business anyway.

walked arnd by the beach, went to the place wer carebear and me used to pick seashells.
got myself quite a few...



to add to my collection in my blue seashell box =)



some of the seashells in this box were from way back... like one of them was given to me from Ruhzaidi wen i was 15... the 1st time we went to ecp together.. LOL.

sat arnd chatting on the phone with kammy,ila and nazreen... watch them play beach soccer. then me and abg sat and watched the sun set.... full moon =)



i was really havin a peaceful and relaxing time till sumone had to sms me out of the blue and ruin my day.

does it feel good to you to rain on my parade?

im not interested to noe wat u think abt me. not now. not anymore. go and tell the whole world abt it. abt how things were my fault. i'll let u go off being the good one. i dont give a damn.

so wat if the songs were abt me? (not us isnt it? only me)
there's nothing in my life right now showing that i regretted the decision i made. im smiling contentedly with my life and the ppl arnd me as it is now.

my blog's song is esp for u... the way u see me as. im sure u luv it. enjoy.

enuf of that... back to wer i was...

went to the pasar mlm at admiralty before going home. bought lots of junk food. was tempted to buy the stickers... it's 15 for $1. hehe. wanted to buy the boonlay nasi lemak, but was still full from the late lunch with aniz. so abg n me bought durians for our family. which made me $33 poorer.

i shud sleep now, working AM 2mrw. the sorethroat is back... :'(

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

21 more days...

The Bottom Line
Even if you don't feel one hundred percent sure, move forward. Luck is with you.

In Detail
Sometimes you just have to go on faith. You're at a crossroads right now -- and time is running out. You need to decide soon which way you're going, and you won't have the luxury of knowing all the information you want to know about your options. The good news is that you're in a very solid lucky phase, and your instincts can fill in the blanks and help you take a calculated risk. So even if you're not completely sure, go in the direction that just feels the most comfortable now.

i dont noe wat u guys think, but i do believe in horoscopes... i wonder if it's against my religion.. any idea zalila? ;p

flashback

wednesday 070606
did nite shift, reached home...slack arnd. im seriously havin insomnia i think. i cudnt sleep till like 5+ am. and i had to wake up arnd 7.30am.

thursday 080606
the ringtone from my hp woke me up. my mum calling. "Kul brape nk bgn?" time check, 8.15am. im soo late. abg was coming to fetch us in 15mins.
abg drove me n mom to meet my dad at ROMM. we were late, luckily abah was in a gd mood. settled all the admin work and went upstairs. i went in with my dad. i seriously cant stop giggling went the ustaz was talking. im sure he was irritated. abah just kept on going, "iye saya.. iye saya" i wasnt paying attention and signed the wrong column. hehehe...

dad went to work after that, me abg n mom went to yishun. went to shop for things to cook. settled down at my place waiting for kammy n zalila to come.

3 plus pm reached the bridal shop. kammy, zalila and my mom came along with me and abg. had to choose a total of 10 bridal outfit. 4 of which is gonna be for the 'sat' n 'sun'. had lots of fun trying out the outfits... the lady who helped me out was also very polite and cute. actually wanted to post a sneak peak of the outfits that i wore which was taken illegally with zalila's mobile camera..... but i dont wanna spoil the surprise... nk tgk dtg wedding saya ye... ;p

more stories abt the bridal outfits, pls Click Here to visit zalila's website.

i dont think im choosy at all went it comes to clothings. i was agreeing to most of the outfits that they chose for me. so was abg... we were like, "ermmmm,oklah..." most of the time. hehe. will be taking our studio indoor and outdoor pics on the 18th =)

in the evening that day, the 3 of us went to mustafa ctr. ended up buying nothing, just laugh2 only, testing perfumes like siao. had a BIG dinner. i didnt knew i cud eat that much.

i was really sleepy...very very sleepy by then. even after the stupid2 jokes we had in the train, and the endless disturbance of ppl in the train didnt perk me up. fell asleep beside my notebook while uploading photos wen i reached home.

friday 090606

1st morning shift at cck. it was ok... met angie at JP after work. bought a new bag =) went to JP PH for awhile. then we had dinner at fish n co. angie n me cudnt finish our meal. i was really2 full... LOL... i still laugh to myself wen i think back abt wat angie said abt the COW.

accompanied her to GR PH after that, champs challenge training. met lots of ppl... lily, sufi, darina, riduan, nas, syukri, eric wong, fadillah, jenny...and a few other ppl that i used to noe in GR.

tot of staying to watch her playoff, but too tired n sleepy. so took a cab home. going to bed after this 2mrw work morning again...

lazy wanna upload photo today, nxt entry maybe.

nitez.

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

Dreams

I had this dream last nite, the dream was abt my marriage with Ruhzaidi. yupz, of all the ppl. it was really freaking me out. the dream was sooo real. i remembered every detail. It woke me up 3 times. 9am..and i continued dreaming. 1pm and i continued dreaming... 2.30pm that's wen i really woke up coz i was gonna be late for work. hehehe...

the only thing i kept on thinkin abt in this dream was that im gonna eventually marry sum1 else coz both of us are still young.

i dont wanna talk abt the dream already... it's really scary. hahahha... i dont noe y.

work was ok... planned with fadillah abt the girls outing. she said before my last day. donoe wen.

*how do u know if sum1 likes u?* hmmmm.... *smilez*

okie...wanna sleep liao.

nite nite.

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

So little time so much to do, I'd rather spend my days with you...

1st of all, my daily horoscope....

The Bottom Line
You're in a holding pattern right now. Wait until there's an opening and then move.

In Detail
You may wake up feeling a little directionless, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. You are probably in a holding pattern of sorts -- waiting for the right time to come in for a landing, so to speak. There are things moving around you in unpredictable ways, but rather than going forward and hoping for the best, you're smart to stay back and let things settle on their own first. You have a very interesting view on things -- one that you should keep in mind for later.

okie, havnt been updating much lately... went to meet the lesbo partners in crime. hehe... zalila n kammy. btw zalila, smlm pagi pon aku ingat nk sms kau, tapi tak jadi... takpe, nanti mesti aku msg. LOL.

i really like these photos of us...









work nite shift just now. really not in the mood to work. counting down.. abt 24 more days.

fed the cat who happened to be outside my house... cute small cat. and skinny like me. LOL





Looks like im strangling this cutey isnt it? hehe..






2mrw work nite, thurs going to ROMM in the morning... then meeting my girls to go and choose my wedding dresses... abg and me shud fetching zalila n kammy sumwer cause he's driving on that day... tapi lom confirm wer ok makcikz... i'll let u know, shud be arnd 1pm or so lah.

haha.. i'll jus stop here for now. there's so many things in my mind that i wanna blog abt, but i jus cant let it out...

have to go watch the OC and northshore on cable now =)

before i go, here's the lyrics to the song i luv listening to over n over again now.
enjoy, very meaningful.


If I Were You - Hoobastank

You seem to find the dark when everything is bright
You look for all thats wrong instead of all thats right
Does it feel good to you to rain on my parade
You never say a word unless its to complain
Its driving me insane

If i were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing i'd do
Is thank the stars for all that i have
If i were you

Look what surrounds you now
More than you ever dreamed
Have you forgotten just how hard it used to be
So whats it going to take
For you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time
If i were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing i'd do Is thank the stars above
Tell the world i love that i do
If i were you

So whats it going to take
For you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time
If i were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing i'd do
Is thank the stars above
For the world i love
Take a breath and enjoy the view
Live the life that i've wanted to
If i were you

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia?

The Bottom Line
Put your energy into planning today. Don't expect to cross the finish line just yet.

In Detail
An exciting opportunity could be coming your way soon -- but are you prepared to take it on? Clear out your busywork to make sure. Run those errands and take care of the little things you've been putting off. You need to get ready to move into a massive planning stage -- a lot of research and scheduling will be required. Don't fret if you may be dealing with conflicting dates; things are all going to settle down later, and you'll be able to plug everyone in to where they need to be.

I simply lurve friendster's new horoscope thingy =)

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

not a good day

got pissed off throughout the day earlier. i dont know wat got into me... or the ppl is just out there to piss me off.

*its been a week since my room's light bulb died on me. and i heard my dad saying 3 times already that he'll fix it. but im still in the dark.

*my only source of light in my room, my little desk lamp, died on me the moment i switched it on this morning. great.

*before i left for work today, my dad told me he'll fix the light...........

*everything at work pissed me off terribly.

*a customer fcukingly shouted at my face. and it wasnt even my fault. these ppl are just hooligans, irritating fcuked up morons. highly educated but dont even know wat the hell is MANNERS.

*i coughed, and there's blood.

*fcuked up bitch who thinks she can climb over my head and sit on me is gonna get it from me soon. u've crossed the line asshole.

*told sum1 abt my room's light, and all he can say is "Fix it urself". well, thats a bloody fcuked up ans u can give me. If i knew how to do it, i wouldnt even mention anyting to u in the 1st place.

*................reached home after a fcuked up day, my room still has no light. im trying very hard not to scream at my dad.


i cant sleep at nite, my throat or whichever place is bleeding, i was shivering with cold sweats after closing. wats up with all that? there's sumthing that is really wrong with me.

im going to the doctor 2mrw morning. should be on mc 2mrw.

chatted with angie a couple of time today. i was suppose to ask her for an evil plan, but she made me do an evil deed for her instead :p

im gonna faint soon.

off to bed.

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

Daily horoscope

Virgo

"It's tough to deliver unwanted news, but it's for the best. Do something productive."
*You may end up being the bearer of bad news, and if you are, then don't feel pressured, because in the end the information you withhold will be more helpful than harmful. It's always better to be honest than to hold back -- white lies are still lies. Put yourself in the other person's position -- wouldn't you like to be respected enough to be told the truth? There is a good way to deliver bad news. All you have to do is respect the person you're talking to.




could it be abt my resignation? i guess it's true, it's hard, but it's for the best.

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

My Looong Story for the day...

i fell asleep while setting the alarm clock this morning. hehe... woke up only arnd 9.55am, and im suppose to have my breakfast at bbc at 9.45am =p
took a cab to cck 1st to send the bloody freezer keys. then only went to bbc. johnny was there too. had my lontong which yuxian bought for me =) shafiah was there too... i miss working with her. a very sweet staff, and hardworking too. chit chat with johnny, charles n yuxian.

then went down to chat with huda. we had a good long talk about married life and motherhood. there were certain points of time she actually freaked me out with her stories, esp the givin birth part. haha.
shan happen to pass by bbc =) long time nvr see him...

went back to cck arnd noon. finished up some stuffs and chat2 with liling. called angie... chat2 with her. walked arnd lot1 alone while waiting for liling to handover the shift to carol.
liling n me went to JP coffee bean to meet up with wilson. chat2 again...

today is my chit chat with colleagues day =p

bought for wilson latte and me n liling had pure chocolate. talked abt so many things... some hot topics also. LOL... wilson invite us go to his store after our talk-crap-coffee-session. i made my own potato salad or sumthing2 like that... it was disasterous. liling and me shared a plate of potato salad and tempura prawns.. too bad im not a seafood fanatic. just had a couple of prawns only.

wilson's planning a get together with some of the assts n rgms. donoe wen... and if they insist on playing mahjong, then count me out =p

met up with abg after that, at jp also. went to billy bombers to have dinner. then went round n round searching for stuffs for our wedding...but didnt buy any.
he didnt like the ring that i said i liked at goldheart. haiz... it looks big coz my fingers are small... so didnt buy it. then cudnt find a suitable ring for him also. so we skipped buying the ring 1st.

then went to look for shoes. but i decided to buy them only after we know wat our outfits are gonna be like...
so we looked at watches... he partly agreed abt the baby g and g-shock metallic watches =)

last stop, took a look at the tour packages. =) abg wanted to surprise me. but he decided to tell me afterall... we're going for our honeymoon 2 days after the wedding ... u shud see the smile on my face wen he said MALDIVES.. hehe... but he say havnt confirm yet. only if everything goes as plan, and if we manage not to touch that sum of $$$$ that he has already set aside. im still choosing: maldives, mauritius, new zeland or .... ?? both agreed its gonna be an island2 kinda place to relax...

booked our movie tickets at 9.30pm. The Da Vinci Code.... finally. it was great.. i loved the twists in the story line... had our nachos and my ben & jerry's chocolate fudge brownies =)

abg was xtra nice to me throughout. i really appreciated it. he has this pda or palm top thingy that he said he wanna give me... so very nice of him. hehehe... but he's thinking of selling it, so must start to psycho him already...

i'll be giving my notice of resignation 2mrw. made up my mind.

gonna doze off now...

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

PotterPuff

i havnt eaten chocolates for almost a week and its killing me. believe it or not, i dont have the time to buy some. haha... i seriously think dat i have a huge problem with time management.

now for example. its 6am and im wide awake wasting my time changing my blog skin. chatted with angie n poy half way. hope those 2 will work things out soon. LOL. i dont noe how else to put it.

im so gonna be a zombie later. have to go back to store arnd 9am coz i accidentally brought back the bloody freezer keys. have to settle a few stuffs at work, then going to BBC to have breakfast with charles and yuxian. miss working with them. they are gonna buy for me my fav lontong =)

my off day's changed to thurs instead of fri. Fri doing mid, but nite got rider meeting. tot of watching da vinci code.. alone.. haha.. ive nvr watched movie alone. must try one day. but maybe not 2mrw, i'd probably end up goin home n sleep after breakfast with them.

i got this job offer at this company. Zam's wife gave me her card. im suppose to send my resume but im busy doing other things. haha. i'm still thinking... or maybe i'll just send then think. i still dont wanna work for now.. haiz~

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets So love the people who treat you right, forget about those who don't & believe that everything happens for a reason If you get a chance, take it, if it changes your life, let it No one said it would be easy, they just promised it'd be worth it.


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