Tuesday, November 13, 2007
* 1:27 AM
my day was almost perfect. being home alone was really peaceful. i had a good rest and slept like a baby till noon.
the initial plan to go visit abah was cancelled coz mom said he's discharged.
so i slept for anotha hour. woke up, cuddled up with the many2 pillows i had in bed with me and watched ellen. james blunt was her guest.
i didnt realise it rained the whole nite, till i got up to let the sunshine in. no wonder it was good to sleep.
the bad habit of switching on the pc before doing chores came again. so there i was for a couple of hrs surfing crap. and just wen i got started with the chores, mom called me to meet her at yewtee mrt. she's sending atin.
left the chores undone, got ready and met my mom n dad at the mrt. they accompanied me to ntuc to get some groceries, and helped me push atin in her pram home, and packed my groceries for me, and cooked for me, and then they went home. hahahaha. sweet arnt they? pampered m i? lol.
i had asam pedas ikan pari for the day. i dont eat sting rays, but i had no choice. it's like eating humans dont u think so? i dont noe eh, i feel dat way. despite dat, i had 3 plates of rice. LOL. someone asked me if im eating to last me for a week... haha. yea, i guess so.
thhheeennnn........................... u had to come back and spoil my day.
wat luck.
fcuk u?
yea.
thx to u, i had a foul mood the rest of the evening. and wen that happens, i tend to vent it on others.
unfortunately, it had to be someone dear to me.
you were really trying ur best, i can see that. but i got caught up with my emotions. i shudnt have, i noe. but it looks like this is the best way out. my flaws are very obvious by now.
fcuked up words wud come out from me wenever shit like this happens.
'aku lari tinggalkan semua ini utk mencari ketenangan diri...'can it really be done? run away from ur problems... and they wud leave?
terus melangkah melupakanmu, lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu.
jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu, tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan.2mrw back to work again. keeping myself busy is the best way to be stress-free.
happily ever after, pls come soon k?
perhaps i shud get a penguin as my partner eh? lol. watched animal planet, and they said penguins stick to one mate forever n ever. haha. they said so in 'Good Luck Chuck' as well...
kesian eh, skg baru aku tahu...
get me a penguin for my next bday pls. lol. but i can imagine mating with a penguin though. wtf. i think im sleepy, thus the nonsense.
k k , gd nite.
Keluhan hatiku tak siapa yang tahu
Ku simpan semua sebak di dada
Biar ku yang terluka
Pernahkah kau mengerti caraku memujukmu?
Pernahkah kau hargai caraku mencintaimu?
Lafaskan kata dari bibir
Adakah ia dari hati?
Mungkin kau tak fahami maksudnya
yang tersembunyi.
Titisan air mata dari pipi ke bumi
Pernahkah kau peduli betapa sedih diriku ini?
*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.
