it's almost 2am. im still wide awake, still with tears pouring.
it seems like i checked my hp thousands of times since last nite. didnt receive the awaited calls/msgs.

reached work late. did alot of errors.. countless mistakes i did today itself. forgetting almost everything else the minute i sink into my deep thoughts. i had to ask and ask again wat the staffs told me they needed. my colleague helped me closing 5 dockets, and i only closed 1.

i knew it was gonna hit me bad.

i cudnt eat the rice uncle cooked for me, i wasnt hungry despite not having any meals thruout the day. i threw up the food that i ate. i feel weak.
locked myself up in the cubicle after dat and just cried. pathetic isnt it? i noe.

darling kammy n zally were online chatting with me while i was at work. zally called me up earlier, and so did kammy... thx for listening. aku sayang korg.

tintin is not home today. she's over at my mom's. no one to make me smile tonite. i miss her alot. i really need her rite now. she's the only reason im moving on. she's my strength, my love, my joy, my pride, my smile...my everything.

i believe its my fault. im sorry. im really sorry.
i gave you ur chance, but did u give me mine?

it's been a day only, and im already as good as dead. how m i going to go thru the rest of my days like this?
y do i have this feeling in me tellin me that this is the end of it all...?
the least u can do is let me noe. then i'll make my way out of ur life.
i just need to noe.