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Friday, August 31, 2007

* 3:12 AM

it was not a good day for me.

even though i knew this day wud come sooner or later, i can nvr face it.
ive given my cats away. my precious babies.
i wudnt wanna lay out the story in detail, the slightest thought of them brings tears to my eyes.

i'll nvr forgive myself if anything happens to them. i'll nvr forgive u for making me do this. and i'll hate u for life.
they were my babies. took care of them every single day throughout the 7mths. how can i just leave them this way? do u have any idea how much it breaks my heart just to think where they wud sleep, wat they wud eat...?
ur such a heartless creature. fucking monster. i hate you.

tears seems nvrending. i let myself cried as much as i wanted. and you dont even fucking care.
wat wud i do without my frens?
they were the ones who were there for me. u shud be ashamed of urself.
thx zally, kammy and cuyah. u guys have always cared, never failed to be there for me. my shoulders to cry on.
ima, u seem to be online always at the rite time :) thx for listening.
not forgetting u, u noe who u are.

"hey there chickeeduckz you b gd n dun u miss me..." he told me.

and he suggested i invite ima over to chat with us. to cheer me up he said. turns out it was really great. i was laughing away till my tummy hurts. for a moment, it almost seems as if i was free from all unhappiness.

as soon as the chatting session was over, all the sadness came back to haunt my thoughts.
i knew it wasnt going to be easy.
and tintin woke up, as if she knew i needed company. i lurve u tintin.

im gonna breakdown really bad. for a start, insomnia hits me already.

I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
just to have sombody by my side
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Sometimes love just ain't enough

someone left a really well said comment:

*If we all know the message of the song is true,then why do people still overlook it in their relationships? Shouldn't we be looking for something more substantial than LOVE - it's is one of the most powerful emotions right!?! And that's what she's saying - once you know "it's your heart you can't trust"
....hence finding someone for a deeper connection, who knows maybe virtues and values of the individual rather than how they make you feel or how they look...LOVE is a natural emotion that will develop with trust and intimacy both emotional and physical. Looks are important too - but they should'nt be the most important thing. Analyze that.*

im wondering if i shud stop our conversations. i might look at things differently than the way u look at it. i've never received any replies from the smses i sent.
maybe that's a sign?

*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.

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