Saturday, July 28, 2007
* 2:54 PM
My PreCiOus ...
everyone who came to see Fatin since day one says that she looks like her daddy :x
skg lagi even worse, muka photocopy daddy dia. cuma hidung dia yang kemek tu ikot mummy dia :p
ive been stuck at home the past few days coz my mom doesnt allow Fatin to go out. and all i do at home is glue my butt to the chair infront of the pc. i guess im back to my old self again (the fariza before being pregnant). i cudnt be bothered abt anything else except for my pc, my baby and my kitties. i cant even be bothered to eat... lol.
yesterday cik aya came with linda and fazlina. they bought me a baby walker :) thx alot! very nice, blue and yellow... my fav colors. plus 2 bottles of mini2 muffins, cik aya must have baked them. mouth-watering appearance, and addictive taste. i must get more from her...
the other day charles xavier (a.k.a old bitch... haha) called me. and he tot i was joking wen i told him i gave birth. coz i was well known as a menopause person to him and yuxian back in bbc. he doesnt even think im capable of giving birth naturally... wtf... im gonna break another of his tooth wen i see him... :p
earlier, i chatted with an old fren on msn. after all these while...
i didnt noe wat i was thinking before... i have to admit that it's sumthing childish. not on talking terms because of this particular person. and he's not worth it after all, compared to our frenship... a little to late to realise isnt it? sorry seems to be the hardest word back then, but not anymore.
I'm sorry, for everything that went wrong during those times.
i thought it'd be awkward, but i found myself blabbing away. issues that i cudnt discuss with anyone else, i cud with u.
mengalah tu bukan kalah... i shud drill dat in my head.
and
him?
i'd be lying if i say i forgot abt him already. it can be very frustrating at times. of all the people, y u? y can the rest just disappear from my thoughts, but y not u?
everything seems so fresh in my mind. every little thing. every little detail.
however, i've built a wall between us. not even frenship can come thru it. and it took me all the strength i have not to peep even a tiny weeny bit. that's the way it's gonna be.
but will the wall collapse if i were to bump into him?
hopefully not. insyaAllah, it wud not crumble down.
i made a decision, and i did not regret it at all.
for now, my life's only concern is my baby and my parents.
my mom gave her resignation letter already... i have to get a job by september.
she told my dad stories she read from the newspapers abt maids abusing small babies (the maid broke both the 6mths old baby's legs!) and parents who splashed hot water at their child. i used to pity the babies and then i'll totally forget abt it. but now it's different, im scared ppl wud do that to my baby. that's y i only trust my mom to take care of Fatin.
2mrw going over yew tee to paint my house :)
*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.
