Tuesday, August 15, 2006
* 12:11 AM
Where'd u go? I miss u so...woke up arnd noon just now. a few missed calls and smses. saw one from the area mngr. terus terbgn =p another one from nana, abt kak ida's engagement. kammy called. but still nothing from him.
kammy n zally dropped by in the afternoon. we ordered pizza.. lol. thumbs up to 888 plaza pizza hut. ive ordered quite a no. of times before, my order was nvr late, and the food is always hot.
my girls helped me out with my dulangs. credits to zally for the lovely 'fan' thingy, and also much appreciation for patiently making the base. kammy was our dj cum entertainer.. ;p zally n me were singing our hearts out.. =) thank you soo much darlings for everything.
went to causeway point in the evening to get a new glue gun, coz mine exploded while i was using it. im still in a state of shock. kammy n zally panicked and hurried to switch off the main plug. the burning smell was all over my room. thank god im ok.
did everyting in a rush coz all the shops were abt to close. bought eyedrops for fahmi n myself, then zally bought for us milo freez at long john. we sat down beside the pasar mlm while waiting for my burger. got a discount for my burger... i wonder wat kammy sweet-talked to the burger seller =p saw a few bapoks, and heard one of them talking to the guy sitting beside us. 'she' have a husband in england.. wewiit.. not bad huh... rich chick.
took the bus home with zally. my off day well spent =)
a photo of us taken a few mths back. luv my sweethearts...
2mrw work morning, have to come home early to help abah with his work thingy... im so lazy.. hehe... wed another off day. planned to settle all my invitations. donoe if siti is arnd if i wanna drop by her place...
i read a few ppl's blog jus now, and some of the things some ppl said left me thinking. wat if i dont get to tell my frens that i luv and care for them, and tell my family that they mean the world to me... and tell him that i lurve him, and i nvr meant to say those things to him...
2 weeks, there's no news. no calls, no msgs. is this how ppl who lurve each other is suppose to be? ignoring one another? wat if i dont get to see u anymore? or wat if u dont get to see me? wud u regret ignoring me all the while? i thought to myself, and i know, i wud regret it for the rest of my life. it's not worth it havin an ego sky high. so wat if u win this battle? wat's the prize? ur pride? i got over myself, and gave in. i smsed, no reply. called, no ans. waited... and waited. i got nothing in return. is this how u care? i dont even noe wat the hell is going on. are u dead?this is not how things shud be. u got it all wrong.sacrifises one after another, i swallowed my pride to make things better for our future. did u ever thought of that? some of the things u did and say cud blow off anybody, but i still stayed strong. but there's nothing comforting in return.. wen i cry, there's only orders asking me to stop. deep down im still thinking, is this the person im gonna spend the rest of my life with? is he worth it?the wedding is just arnd the corner, and im not surprised if it's gonna be cancelled. the way i see things are, it's expected.andai sudah tiba masa, dan tiada jodoh kita, biar kita berpisah, dari merana.
*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.
