Friday, February 24, 2006
* 2:22 AM
~*...bitter sweet migraine in my head...*~dragged myself to work earlier. soooo hate midshift. saw the mngmnt roster.. there's this week i have to do midshift on sat n sun... omg.. how m i gonna survive that... goodness.nvm work. 2mrw off day... wohooooo... sat work morning, then sunday not working again. double woohoooo... then monday i off i think... weeeee to the max. haha. haiz, i miss the feeling i used to have abt coming to work, like in SP n JE. always finding sumthing to decorate.. or sumthing2 like dat.. i used to have so many "projects" at work. now the mood all gone already.they always wonder y i have crayons n poster colors in my locker.. and all those shells n stars. haha.. its like i nvr touch them already now. the last time i used them was at JE, did a gift from scratch for sum1. hope its still arnd...went off at 8pm sharp... hehe. met him and went to watch FINAL DESTINATION 3. its a MUST see movie. i wanna go see again... anyone wanna come? hehe. well, i shall not ruin it by laying out the story line here. all i can say is, i was shivering inside the cinema. the way they died one after another... eewww.... i wanna go see again!! left quite a scary impact on me lah... i was paranoid the moment i step out of the cinema. i was scared of everything. haha.*****
on the way home, i actually tot of my parents. how im scared of losing them. i just wanna talk to them like last time... joke arnd with them. now there's only silence. i cant even look them in the eye if i talk to them now. and wen my dad wanna watch tv from the cable in my room, he'll just watch from outside... standing outside my door. its just sad. we're so distance, me n my parents, i dont even noe if we cud get things back to the way it shud. i miss them. i miss my dad. he used to be the closest person to me. wat happened? why? i dont really noe. i keep on thinking i have to do sumthing abt it before its too late. haiz~ i still rmmbr the sms my dad sent me on hari raya 2 years ago.. wen i didnt wanna come back home anymore... "adik, balik ruma, maafkan mama... abah pon mintak maaf... mama maner yang tak sayangkan anak dia... " it shud me apologising to them... haiz~*****
donoe wat im gonna do today... it's friday once again... shud be lazyin arnd reading...waiting... dont feel like going anywer... Give me a long kiss good night and everything will be alrightTell me that I won't feel a thing,So give me Novacaine
*I get up, I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing.
